I took this picture a couple of weeks ago. My iphone, obviously doesn't do it justice, because it was much more beautiful in real life. I love sunsets and this one was no exception!!
These clouds one day were so unbelievably beautiful!!! I wanted to just stare at them all day long! I want Spring so badly!! I guess it is technically here. I'm wishing for warmer weather, however :)
Why did I post these pictures? Because I love nature and the beauty of our world! AND because I love living here in Boise. I LOVE it. Not just because I grew up here, but because I see what a great community it is to raise a family in. Low crime rate, bigger city, but not too big. Smaller city comparatively, but not too small. I just love it. Which is why we have chosen to stay here. Owen had a potential job offer in the Seattle area. He flew up there, met with all of the people and came home. I think it's safe to say that the job is ours if we want it. There are only a few things that keep us from taking it. You might say we are crazy, but we have moved before, not knowing the extent of what it is like to relocate. We were smarter this time and looked into the cost of living, etc. with that matched against the salary, it just wouldn't make it worth it. We prayed about it and we just both feel like, we made it back to Boise, somewhat miraculously, and if we want to stay here, we better just make it work. We are not jobless. Owen is working for a landscaping company as an applicator, and although it is not ideal, it is better than nothing. We don't mind living with my parents for the time being, and so we are going to wait it out. Believe me, it was hard to say "no" to the ONLY company that has wanted us in a year. Yes, in a couple of weeks it will mark a year from the time Owen was let go from his last job. If you would have told me then that it would be more than a year until my life settled down, I probably would have given up right then and there. I guess that's the reason we don't know how long our trials will last, what a daunting feeling that would be. My mom always tells me, "that's why you just have to take it a day at a time." And sometimes, that is exactly what we do. We have been extremely blessed to have such supportive family and friends to uplift us and help us along. You have no idea how nice it is to hear an encouraging comment or word. Truly, all I ever want to hear is, "something will come up, maybe tomorrow. You never know!" We have been blessed to be able to live with my parents, who love us and our little family. Zayne and Evie LOVE grandma and grandpa! Owen's job is a HUGE blessing! It allows me to stay at home with the children. The "sacrifice" monetarily is well worth it. Nobody loves your children as much as you do.
Right now there are a few possible jobs in the works. There is one that Owen had a phone screening with a week and a half ago. It is a huge company and it would be an incredible job!! If we got it, a lot of the things would fall into place and make perfect sense to me. Including why we had to move to Moses Lake for a short period of time. The job would cover that area, as well as the Treasure Valley. But, we have not heard back from them yet. I was pretty excited about this one. Probably the most excited of any of the jobs we have gone for. I was afraid I would be very disappointed if we didn't get it. And then one night I was thinking about it and I had been praying about it. I remembered a blessing that Owen had given me, and actually I had heard it several times in blessings I had received. It was that "Heavenly Father has a plan for your family; He wants you to be happy." It was then that I decided to let it go and trust in Heavenly Father. If this job doesn't work out, then another one will. He has a plan for our family. That is all I really need to know right now, no matter how hard it may be at times. I love this quote by Brad Wilcox that states:
"True faith is not just knowing God can, but knowing why sometimes He doesn't. True faith is not just believing that things can work out perfectly, but trusting when sometimes they don't. True faith is not just receiving your answer, but accepting His."
This sums up the whole last year, or even 5 years of our lives.
Sometimes I feel like God is not hearing my prayers. Sometimes I feel like I'm praying in vain. I'm human, it happens. I saw this quote the other day. It's not by an apostle or prophet, but it struck me as truer than true :)
"God is making things happen for you. Even when you don't see it, even when you can't see it, even if it's not evident... God is working on your prayers."
This quote reminds me of those times when my prayers have been answered or things have happened and I look back and realize why things happened they way they did. Heavenly Father IS always listening to my prayers and I know he will answer them in His time and in His way. There's a new week ahead, with maybe new things in our future. You just never know :)
